My small group for the David session just held our last Zoom meeting. One of the questions in the pre-meeting email was what would be our epitaph. I had never given that matter any thought ever and for some reason it stuck in my mind for the few days before the meeting.
I may or may not know when I will die or what causes my death. It could be sudden – like a car crash – or it could be an illness that may give me time to prepare. Either way I have no way of knowing right now what kind of person I will be when I die — what my circumstances will be — how I will be feeling. And that not knowing made me think that I would want my epitaph to say something that would be true about me no matter what was going on in my life — not just at the time of my death but through out my entire life before.
Then I thought of a phrase that I have been hearing in various webinars lately.
‘I am enough’
I am enough for You, God.
Before I was conceived I was enough. When I was being abused I was enough. During all those decades I lived in shame I was enough. While I was escaping the shame I was enough. Today I am enough. Tomorrow – if there is one – I will be enough. And every day after that that You decide I am to be here on Earth I will be enough.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
By the time I die I could be living like a saint or be lying drug-addled in a ditch or anywhere in between but the one thing that has not and will not change is Your love for me, LORD.
And I don’t have to do anything to earn Your love and acceptance. I am under no pressure to perform for You (or anyone else) which leaves me free to experience You without boundaries or limitations. That freedom makes me want to get to know You more and more every day. I want us to become as close as we can while I am on this planet. Our relationship is the most important part of my life. I want to learn to love like You do, Jesus. Not just love for others but for love for myself as well.
I am enough. And that will always be true.
Thank You, LORD, for Your Love and Grace and Peace. I love You.